HiHater's blog

i know one day ill leave,i wont forget wat i seen,tired of smokin this weed,need a new life to lead,even tho my family,aint here with me,they always in my heart,even tho its not how it seems,so i gota be real i dunt wanna get high,no one noes how i feel so they tellin me lies,

no one feels my pain,tryin to quit this game,everyday i strain,juz tryin to maintain,neva a smile on my face,cant leave this rat race,no matter how hard i try,hard enuff gettin by,yo im tired of this life,im juz tryin to get right,

i just cant dont know why,it caught me like a surprise,the weed was my homie,but now its juz not for me,ppl think but dunt know me,im alone so lonley,in dis world so evil,was wrong with these ppl,say they feel my pain,aint the same cuz we aint even equal,

a new life i need,the weed fuck that,i noe where i been so im never going back,keep goin forward dont stop,keep givin it all u got,dun wrry bout wa ppl are sayin,W.E,keep prayin for better,i dont pray so write letters,throough the shyt i been through i stayed together,

all the shit you put me through
and you even lied and said you loved me too
how could you lie about love
love is sacrate from above
how could you do that to me
someone who helped you in your time of need
how could you be so damn fake
and a fucking snake
i treated you so right
but now you have another wife.
you broke my heart
so its like putting a gun to my chest and just firing it
do you think thats fair
for a girl who was always there.
your new girl doesnt know whats shes about to get
you dont even love her yet
but baby if all this love for her is true
im happy for you too.
thats all i ever wanted
was to see you smile.
but baby i aint gunna lie
because i wish you were mine
you dont know how much i love you
after all the shit we have been through
you dont know how it feels to fall asleep with tears in your eyes
knowing your with her and your alright
i will always love you, i promise
but now its time to say goodbye
imma stand up, and just walk out the door
the way you taught me to let go.

this has gone on for so long, and now im long gone, wave goodbye and head out the door.

we all fall inlove ?
atleast once in our life time.
damn i know i sure did
and its pretty fucked up
love can make u smile
and also cuddle up against a corner and cry
when loves in action
it can make u shine brighter than the sun
laugh the silliest laugh
and just make you smile.
but than there comes a time ,
we all know when all things are good,
every beginning has to come to an end
and when it comes down to it
it feels like cupid has a gun.
fuck love, it isnt worth it
when you smile, you never know when your going to frown
or even cry.
so fuck a niggaa thatt broke your heart.
next time you see him
snap his cock.

my mom waS embarrassed of me
when she found out i smoked weed
she cryed day and night
whiled i rolled up a blunt just right.
one day she had the courage to ask me
"hunny why do u need weed"
i told her i need it to proceed
and she was just eyeing me
knowing that im lying to her
and she doesnt desvere that at all
she was thinking to her self what she did wrong
to desvere this punishment so unthought out
i felt like dying, because
i upset the woman that gave me birth
and thats not the frist
i did it many times
and thats not right.
as time went by
i thought to my self
"why the fuck am i doing this?"
it wasnt clear
but the answer was out there i just had to find out
karma is a bitch
and she came towards me to quick
this isnt fair
cause i havent even got a chance to change
but its too late
only if i was smarter
if only i did what my parents had said
if only i wasnt such a fucking pot head
maybe they wouldnt regret having a daughter
fuck i upset them to much
now i understand why my dad dispises me
because he new from the beginning
that it wasnt even worth the try
it feels like i was born to fuck up
even my ex told me to straighten the fuck up
even tho i try too change i cant
because its got some kind of hold on me
i still drink like a motherfucking g
this isnt gunna stop me.
and this shit isnt easy
if ur living ur life as me.